President TRUMP a cry for help from a low class U.S.A CITIZEN

I need money help.wow I asked for help.anyone rich enough to give a helping hand a tax rite off a few new friends. Not Saying ill be your friend or even like your ways but I give everyone a chance.let's see where this goes

   give a hello.yes that was lame but I'm better then this my family is my son mom and me.I know we deserve more at least my son does..our trailer.yeah.mom won't let me ask for help she's embarrassed cries.
    well I cry too when no one's looking.my pains unbearable .hate the meds they don't last.dint know what to do.my back pay from disability was gonna get us a modular home used I dint care just safe.warm.sturdy.....now we got this .takes 3years to get on helping list. lawyer forgot to submit my documents from important doctors so I lost also they didn't get me ready to meet w judge.told her I wanted to start a business. I did say that lawyer confidence....but my mind isn't All there.i can't take life.pain.I had a store(marias place, a flagging business my dad ran .....I have severe P.T.S.D., ANXIETY LIKE YOU WOULDNT BELIEVE.DEPPRESSION AS HE AH DEGENERATIVE DISC DISEASE.BULGING DISC ARTHRITIS HEAD TO TOESEVERE MIGRAINES DAILY YES EVERY DAY.
THOUGHT OF SUICIDE BUT NO ONE COULD EVER LOVE MY SON LIKE ME
...THATS IT HE KEEPS ME AS STRONG AS I CAN B........

Mindfulness - Depression - Anxiety - P.T.S.D- things that may help through your journey and mine

square stop count to 4 while taking a deep breath
count to 4 while exhaling
and repeat 4 times, It really will work, you have to think about doing it though,
  sometimes crying is the only way, BUT only for so long, 
when my car was stolen by an A-Hole_ mechanic, i cried for weeks couldn't believe it happens! So I got a counselor because i was shutting down ,My counsler knows me and she knows how much i love my son, well i acually live for HIM,  and I was afraid of hurting someone close to me like my son, I know in my heart id never do that BUT, i needed help and I listen to all the people out there that hurt there kids and wonder in they are mental or just assholes that dont deserve to live,!!, I also want to be the strongest mom I can be, and right now im starting to get my grounds back a little i go to counseling every week 3 times a week and try to hit a meeting like AA meetings or addiction meetings, because they are open for everyone and everyone has problems and we talk together trying to help each other, ITS HELPED ME SOOOO MUCH!!!

Right now I live for my son but someday I hope to live for me too, and with counseling and groups, its bound to click in right??
  

Please keep chatting and checking in here, lifes to short to live like this so if you have any imput please share it here, and ill be back within 2 days, see you then

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Mindfulness is here and now, don't think of the stresses of then or what could happened, think about right this second